Sharing is good!

Had a much better weekend than week thats for sure! A friend from a few hours away came for a visit and helped out with out final garage sale. I made some money which is nice and the best part was that I was still able to give 6 bags of clothes and 2 bags of footwear to Goodwill. I felt great after we made the donation! Pay it forward as they say!
We also steam cleaned the carpets in the house and it just looks brighter and fresher. I love it. Maybe a part of my mood was a result of my surroundings. I do believe that. I have been in better spirits for sure. I am really looking forward to hosting the annual pool party this weekend and seeing many friends have a good time with us!
At lunch Saturday, I had a great talk with my friend from far away and it was nice to have someone express concern for me. I think I talked his ear off but it was very good to share. He could relate (he has had similar concerns of his own) and he actually listened! Many have tried to de-value the issues I have been having and have not really shown concern. It was nice to feel that and share my deep feelings with a good friend!!
In the end, my terribly low week resulted in a better weekend and a wonderful result this morning. I lost another pound from my starting weight and therefore am 3 pounds closer to my goal!! 22 more pounds to go! Walking/Running has not happened. I was extremely dizzy after my last Migun Bed treatment so I decided to not try more cardio. This week I plan on being on the Migun bed 3 times and I would like to go for 1 long walk with the dogs. My friend from far away is coming Friday for the weekend so maybe Friday evening we can take the dogs. This way I am not alone if I get dizzy and need to take a break! Looking forward to it!

This is me.....creating wellness in my life!

Sleeping a lot!

I tried....for 2 days. I keep falling asleep as soon as I get home. My energy is so low this week. Walking on the treadmill has been an impossible feat. I am going to try for 15 mins today then take a nice long bath and relax. Today has been a busy day at work and I am beat already. I still have half my day left!

I wanted to share what I did last night. I had forgotten about this tool but was happily reminded of it by an email I received. Lululemon has a Goal Tender tool that you can use to set goals. It takes you through a wonderful thought provoking process and in the end you have goals set for Health, Personal and Professional with dates and completion progress bars. You get emails as time passes and as a date approaches. It's a great tool to use. I achieved one of the goals I set so far! Become an RMT by May 2011 and I did! It was great to get that congratulations email! The hard part was reading my overall life goals. Much was written about supporting my brother through his illness and supporting his family if he doesn't make it. I suppose I had an idea that he may pass away, even though I wished that it wouldn't happen. Needless to say my emotions were high last nigh after reading that. I did update my goals and felt good after doing so.

..... I miss him like crazy. I wish things were different. I've have severals dreams of him lately. He's always on my mind.....I wish we had more time together.

Wish me luck on the treadmill kids! I'm gonna need it!

This is me...creating wellness in my life!

Feeling down......

Last week was tough. As you can tell because I didn't post once. I was avoiding it. I'm feeling tired again, sleepy to the point of not being able to stay awake at all. I was not perfect this week in taking my supplements and I think that brought me down. I felt much better on Friday when I had my B12 shot but it wasn't enough to completely change my mood and energy. I hope I will do better this week. No need to recap on my goals because I didn't progress in any of them. In fact, I gained one pound back. Frustration is at its highest right now.

Trying to find a positive in last week and I did! I maintained my adjustment through the whole week. Maybe my spine and ribs and starting to really heal and I can move to bi-weekly treatments! I'll see tomorrow when I get assessed and adjusted again.

Tonight I am going to have a 30 minute Migun Bed treatment and then have dinner. After dinner I am going to try and walk on the treadmill. I decided to do the treadmill because if I need to lay down from fatigue and dizziness I can do so in my home and not in the middle of the street. Until I can complete a full hour without issue, I will stay on the treadmill. Today's goal is to go as long as I can and then repeat that length of time each day this week. I will increase next week if I feel I am strong enough.

I feel down, unmotivated and frustrated. Tomorrow is a new day, hopefully a better day.

This is me......creating wellness in my life.

Expectations.....

I have learned that having expectations leads to disappointment so I have tried to set goals and reach for them rather than expecting something to happen or change. I suppose it's understanding the difference between visualizing an achievement versus expecting it to happen. I can visualize my goals being achieved but I cannot just expect them to happen. I have set goals and will work my best to attain them.

Yesterday was a struggle. I worked super late and had no time in the morning to plan my meals for the day. I left the house with leftover pizza and 2 Lara bars. Not super balanced but I had to make it work. The worst part was dinner, McDonalds. Really? I am very much aware of my extreme weakness to terrible food when I am starving, that is why I pre-plan meals so I won't be in that situation. Yesterday I was tested and I failed. Today I move forward with confidence that I will not repeat my mistakes by planning ahead and always being prepared.

I'd like to share where I get many of my healthy choice recipes and ideas!! I've been using this website for many years now and I love it!! Hungry Girl is a website with great healthy ideas for meals. She has taken some classic fans like the Big Mac and made it healthier!! It's a great resource so you can make your new healthy lifestyle include some wonderful and tasty foods!!! There is an option to subscribe to her emails (which I do!!) and she has many cookbooks out! They are all awesome! She also just completed her first season on the Cooking Network and is set to film more in the fall! Enjoy!!

I found out that along with my B12 shot on Thursday I also get my results from my wellness assessment! I'll share it all...the good, the bad, and the ugly. After all, it's what I need to succeed on this wellness quest!

This is me...... creating wellness in my life!

The end of one week, the beginning of the next...

This week started off well, I was feeling better. The week ended not so strong. The past three days I have felt tired and have had low energy. They said it would take some time before my deficiences levelled off and I felt better long term but when I felt so great after feeling so poorly I was disappointed that my poor feeling came back. I'm sure I'll get there but it's gonna take time. I need to be patient and allow myself to heal and become strong again.

Lets look at my goal list and get the update!!


1. Fix my nutrition (eat healthy!!) 


Had a great start with changing my nutrition. The end of the week wasn't perfect but that is life. I had two family birthday parties so food was in big quantities! I had smaller portions but I also had cake!


2. Loose 25 pounds (need to feel better!!)


The end of week one and I weighted in 2 pounds lighter! They say that loosing 1 pound  per week is the best case for weight loss so it looks like I am doing okay. Focus on the positive! Next week is a new week! 23 to go!


3. Drink 8 cups of water per day


Got up to 5 glasses a day and now I finally crave water again!! I'll be at 8 glasses a day in no time. I'll have achieved my goal once I have had 8 glasses of water per day for over 21 days!!


4. Shake this terrible survivors guilt (explanation to come)


This will be ongoing for me. I had a hard time this week with the internal panic attacks I have been having. I visualize my brother still being alive but I can't get to him and I just scream "I want my brother back" over and over. It's terrible and it's still happening. I've got a way to go with this unfortunately.


5. Improve my cardiovascular health


Gonna try walking around the block this week or on the treadmill to see what happens. WIsh me luck!


6. Run the Detroit half marathon in October 2012


Once #5 is achieved the training for this will begin!


7. Work out at least 3 times per week


Gonna try one work out this week. I have decided to cancel my Train With Jane membership and go back to Goodlife. Unfortunately the hours for TWJ are not working with my new work schedule. I'm going to start slow and hope it gets better so I can get back to weekly work outs. I really do enjoy them!!!


8. Start a family in 2012 (!!!!!!!)


Fingers crossed. We haven't started trying but I hope we do this year or early next year!


9. Bring Yoga back into my weekly routine (twice per week)


I will be joining a studio in September and will start slow. I am very excited to get back to yoga. I think it will help me with my overall health and wellness. 


10. Create overall wellness in my life (be truly happy)

  
I hope to get my plan and results this week. Then I will have a drawn out path to wellness. I will hear from Tina this week and will meet with her to review my results and have my plan set up. My neck has been feeling really great. I have been on a twice a week treatment plan as well as 2 Migun bed treatments. They have been really helping. In 6 months I will have new X-rays done and will see the results in black and white.
     
All these in total will have completed my overall wellness plan. What a great feeling that will be!!!


This is me.....creating wellness in my life!